Day 3, Part 1

So last night wasn't terrible. Despite the fact that I had an entire day of doing nothing to prepare for my movie premiere, I was still running late to make the train. I ended up eating only one bowl of soup, although it was a decent size. And, because I was running late, I forgot to bring a granola bar! I was so disappointed when I realized, because I knew I'd be hungry after the movie. I ended up buying a bag of Pop Chips for the ride home, but I think where I really went wrong was with the Peach Iced Tea Snapple. I wish I didn't have so much sugar so late at night!

Moving on to today. There's not much to write about... it's been a pretty blah day. For breakfast, I had a venti vanilla latte from Starbucks and a Kellogs Fiber-1 bar in dark chocolate almond. Then for lunch I had butternut squash soup and half of a hummus wrap from Hale & Hearty. The soup was probably filled with calories, but it's my favorite one, and they don't always have it so I got it anyway. I also grabbed a bag of BBQ Pop Chips. I just really wanted something crunchy - I feel like Pop Chips aren't the worst snack I could have though.

I don't know, I kind of know I could have done better today. Especially since I know I'll have to get another cup of coffee in the next 20 minutes. But I'm going to try. And hopefully tomorrow I'll get my lazy ass to the gym. Okay, I'll update later. Like I said... kind of blah, not much to write!

Day 2, Part 1

Hello, hello!

So last night I ended up finishing off the night pretty well. I was proud of myself, because I kind of really wanted a yummy ice cream sundae. But I didn't give in!

Dinner:
2 bowls of homemade vegetable soup.

I came home and my mom had made me a huge pot of vegetable/barley soup. I'm a vegetarian, so sometimes it's harder for me to find something to eat for a quick dinner - everyone else in my family eats meat. So I thought it was great that she made me the soup. It was just a bunch of vegetables, some potatoes, and barley in a vegetable broth that my mom made with water, a jar of tomato paste and some vegetable boullions. It was really delicious and I feel like it couldn't have had that much calories. The barley made it a little bit more filling then if it was just vegetables.

After dinner, I have to say that I was pretty satisfied. But I ended up having 3 cookies - they're these Trader Joes cookies, kind of like Oreos but made with a peppermint filling instead. They're SO GOOD and they only sell them around the holidays - so I felt like I should treat myself! Anyway, they were small. And that was all I ate for the rest of the night!

Now, onto today.

Breakfast:
-3 egg whites scrambled with baby spinach and 1 wedge of Laughing Cow cheese.

Now, what I really wanted for breakfast was Dunkin Donuts - a yummy strawberry donut and a gingerbread latte. But, just as I thought, okay I'll pick one up, I remembered my diet. And I didn't get it! This breakfast was really good and satisfying, but next time I definitely need to add something more to it - it wasn't enough to keep me full for a while.

Lunch:
-Salad made with romaine, asiago cheese, walnuts, tuna, roasted red peppers, and oil and vinegar.

Snack:
-1 orange.

Okay, if I'm going to be honest, and I should be - I snacked on some chocolate cookies. =x I know I know but it's hard going from eating everything I want to eating so healthy, even though it's just Day 2! But I swear I'm trying harder.

Tonight I have a movie premiere, so I'll be eating dinner early... I'm probably going to have 2 more bowls of that vegetable soup, and I know I'm going to end up getting coffee, but I'll try to make it a nonfat latte. Snack-wise, I should be good, although I think I'll bring a granola bar for the train ride home later just in case.

Day 1, Part 2

Good afternoon. Updating again to keep on top of myself!

I did pretty good this afternoon, keeping on track of what I told myself I was going to do. I ate lunch at 2 and I had:

-A medium 10-vegetable soup from Hale & Hearty
-Mixed greens with broccoli, edamame, feta cheese and walnuts in oil and balsamic vinegar.

For a snack just a few minutes ago, I had a yogurt with granola and strawberries and bananas from Starbucks.

I'm kind of hungry right now, but I'm really more tired. I wanted to get another coffee, but I didn't want to waste the calories on the sugar. So I guess I'll just wait until I'm on the train and I can take a nap.

I don't have much else to say. I really am exhausted, and I have a busy few days ahead of me. Hopefully it doesn't affect my diet. I'll update later!

Day 1, Part 5...

Hello. I started this blog quite a while ago - actually, I can't even remember how long ago. This brings my blog count to a total of 3, however, I have a handful more of ones that I have discarded and no longer use. But I would love to actually keep up with this one.

So once again, I am trying to lose some weight. For the past few months, I have given up on the whole weight loss/diet/exercise thing. Actually, since the beginning of the summer, so it's been a while. It hasn't been terrible - it's not like I've gained an incredible amount during those few months, but I have gained some weight. During the summer, it was easier. I was working constantly, and walking a lot since I had to walk to work in Fire Island. I wasn't eating nearly as much as usual, because I was kept so busy. So despite the fact that I was not watching what I was eating at all and I wasn't exercising, I was maintaining pretty much the same weight. It wasn't that I was happy with the weight I was at either - actually, I really wasn't happy with it at all. But I wanted to have a good summer. I wanted to be more carefree and relaxed, and I wanted to do what I wanted and not stress so much about how I looked. So I gave myself a little break.

But that break continued after the summer ended, into September, October, November, and now, December. I told myself that I would go back to exercising and trying to eat healthier in the fall, but it just never happened. I'm honestly disappointed in myself. I've been letting myself eat whatever I want, I have been to the gym about 5 times in the past 6 months, and I've only been gaining weight and becoming flabby. It's embarrassing, and the worst part is the clothes situation. I feel like I can't wear anything I like anymore, and I LOVE fashion. I have been hiding in baggy clothes, leggings, and the same pair of jeans that are steadily getting tighter on me.

Two other things are making me want to lose weight quickly.

One is a dress. I got this beautiful black lace dress from ASOS for a wedding I have in February for one of my favorite cousins. It reminds me of the kind of dress Kim Kardashian would wear - meaning it's short, tight, and body-conscious. I got it in the mail a few days ago, and I couldn't be more in love with it. BUT. I am certainly not in love with the way I look in it. My stomach sticks out and my legs are in nowhere near the condition I need them to be in order to pull off this look. I really want to look good at this wedding - if I have the date I want, I want to impress him. And if I don't have a date, then there's all the more reason to look fantastic.

Another thing is a boy. As per usual, right? Me and this boy started seeing each other about 2 months ago. All he does is talk about how sexy and beautiful and gorgeous he thinks I am, and whenever we're together, he has never made me doubt myself. He is constantly touching me and looking at me and telling me how amazingly sexy I am, but no matter how many times he says it, I don't believe him. When he touches my stomach I recoil, when he looks at my body (even though it's with appreciation), I feel like I immediately want to cover myself up. I want to look better for him. Even though he constantly goes on how about how much he loves my body, I just feel like it could be better. More toned, more thin. I don't know.

So today I am really honestly going to start dieting and exercising. I need to look better - not just for that boy, but also for myself.

I admittedly did not have a good start this morning. Instead of my usual venti vanilla latte from Starbucks, which is relatively low in sugar and calories for a latte, I got the peppermint mocha. I couldn't help it - there were snow flurries outside, and the whole city looked like Christmas. So it looks like that was my treat for the day.

I had a Kellogs FiberPlus bar for breakfast. It was Dark Chocolate Almond - they're pretty good. I'm super picky about granola bars and things, but this one isn't bad. It actually kind of tastes like a candy bar. It only has 130 calories and 7 grams of sugar, and although I should be eating a more well-rounded breakfast, this isn't horrible for on the go.

For the rest of the day I need to eat healthier. For lunch I'm thinking I'm going to get Hale & Hearty. I want to fill up on a healthy lunch so that I'm not tempted to grab a snack on my way home. That always happens - I get so hungry and end up grabbing something unhealthy in Penn Station or Grand Central - something like a bag of chips, popcorn, Haagen Daaz ice cream, a Jamba Juice smoothie, a big pretzel, chocolate bars. It's actually disgusting when you think about. But today for lunch, I think I'll get a low calorie soup from Hale & Hearty and maybe a salad, but not with much in it. I could get mixed greens with edamame, feta cheese, broccoli, and walnuts - that shouldn't be too bad. The only bad thing is the feta cheese, but feta isn't too bad for you.

I seriously doubt I'll have time to work out today. I won't get home until at least 7:30 and I'm probably hanging out with that boy. But tomorrow morning, I swear I will go to the gym before work.

I'll update later with what I ate for lunch!