baaaaadd weekend

Okay so this weekend I really disappointed myself. I did a horrible job on my diet, especially Saturday! =( It makes me feel really sad because I did SO good all week and made so many improvements. I feel like I threw it all away this weekend. This is what usually happens when Saturday rolls around though. I wake up later than normal, don't go to the gym, and eat badly. Ugh. I guess I'll get it over with and write the gory details down. I'm hoping it will make me think about it more next weekend, so I don't make the same mistakes! 

Saturday: 
I just did not do a good job. For one thing, I had planned on going to the gym in the morning - I had an ambitious schedule, starting with 9:30 Step, then 10:15 Total Body, then 11:00 Zumba. Unfortunately, I went out the night before, and came back later than I wanted. I slept through my alarm and woke up at 10:20 and just couldn't get myself to go to Zumba. So... the day started off good, with oatmeal with cranberries, walnuts and apples for breakfast.... but it went downhill from there. I was STARVING all day Saturday, like no matter what I ate, it was just not enough. I had a snack in between breakfast and lunch, rice cakes with Laughing Cow light cheese wedge, which wasn't that bad, but still - I NEVER snack in between breakfast and lunch. Then for lunch I had the last bowl of minestrone soup, which is healthy, but wait for it. I showered and had to be at work by 3, so I ate before work in an effort to control my hunger at work. I had leftover dinner from the other night, whole wheat pasta with broccoli and asparagus. I ate so fast I doubt my stomach even registered the food, then went to 7-11 and got a medium coffee with too much sugar. At work, I just couldn't stop. I was munching on things here and there and it was awful. 

First of all, someone brought in dark chocolate covered pomegranate candies, and those were just my downfall. They were amazingly good, and I had barely treated myself to anything rich all week. I tried to avoid them for the first few hours, but my hunger and curiosity got the best of me. After hearing, "Oh my God, these are so GOOD" for the billionth time, I finally gave in and tried one. And they really were delicious. I told myself I would only have a few, but then I kept reaching in the bag. I justified it by thinking, their very tiny, dark chocolate isn't that bad for you, and pomegranate is a fruit. Hah. Even I knew it was pathetic as I was doing it. But it didn't stop there. I was just so hungry! I kept grabbing pieces of broccoli (which wouldn't be so bad if it wasn't for the mound of butter Outback added to their vegetables) and even had a spoonful of mashed potatoes and a few handfuls of cheese. 

But the worst came at night. I came home and ate some more snacks. Then I went out with some friends, where I had 1 Corona. Wait for the worst part - we went to the diner later on, after we uh... smoked a little. I ordered a side of fries and ate almost the whole thing, complete with honey mustard and ketchup. 

Ugh. I felt AWFUL the next morning. I woke up with my stomach hurting, and I just felt sick thinking about what I had eaten the day before. It was terrible. I was so so disappointed in myself =( 

Sunday: 
 I tried to do better, but the motivation just wasn't really there. Because my stomach was bothering me, I didn't even have a real breakfast - just eating some whole wheat Chex out of the box and a handful of walnuts. I snacked most of the day, eating plain rice cakes, a pack of Smart Food popcorn, and pretzels. For lunch I had Amy's organic vegetable barley soup and rice cakes. I probably had another snack after that, but I honestly don't remember. I had whole wheat pasta with eggplant and a salad for dinner. Really, that was a good dinner. But then after dinner I was still hungry. I had tea with too much sugar and some popcorn. 

I'm just disappointed because I know I could have done better. Looking back on it, I didn't do TOO horrible. The chocolates and the french fries were definitely the worst things. Everything else wasn't too horrible, it was just that I wasn't paying attention to portion control at all. And I'm mad that I didn't have the motivation to work out. I wish I did better this weekend, but I'll make up for it but doing really great this whole week! 

So far today, I've eaten: 

Breakfast: 
-triple grande non-fat vanilla latte from Starbucks 
-Fiber 1 strawberry and oats granola bar 

I'm interning today so I can't work out. I would later, but I really just do not feel good. I took some Vitamin-C pills, and I have a thing of cough drops in front of me, so hopefully I will start feeling better. But today is just not looking good. It's not even noon and I'm already incredibly exhausted. I feel slightly feverish and my throat is irritated and really bothering me. I'm light-headed and feeling a little dizzy and very stuffed up. I wish I would feel better because I absolutely need to go to the gym in the morning - besides, its Step and Total Body, 2 of my favorites. 

Hopefully being sick will help curb my appetite! Ha ha. I know that's not really great to wish for, but oh well!